So we have to move. Again. It seems that every time we get settled, and I get everything just the way I want it, the landlord sells the house or the rent goes up.
So, here we go again. And I don’t even know where we’re going. Last nights’ message at church was a reminder that we live in tents; we’re not here forever. When we get to the Promised Land, we can settle and build houses, and multiply, but until then, it’s all packing and moving.
I have prayed and prayed about this; what is the wisest thing to do? Stay and pay the higher amount, or use it as an opportunity to move on? Tiffany graduates this year, Brittany is already out on her own, and really, I am free to go wherever I feel God is leading me. I keep reminding myself that God is a God of order, and that He does indeed lead us step by step.
I feel in my heart it is time to move. But I am so comfortable here. I hate change; I like to take a couple of years to slow down and think about things before I do anything. I don’t have an impulsive bone in my body. It’s why sudden endings and losses leave me feeling blind-sided, and take so long to recover from.
I have learned this; it’s not wise as a tent-dweller to accumulate so much stuff. I’ve spent the last few weeks going through drawers, and boxes and closets. Pulled out a huge box of journals from the last fifteen years; found photos and memories, cards and letters. And one thing is clear; God has been at the center of it all, always preparing the way ahead of me, and providing when there was no way we could have made it this far. And always, always, scripture, on everything. Scrapbooks, high school yearbooks, journals, notebooks. The Word of God has been my rock and foundation through it all. Like a thread woven through all of the situations and circumstances, the dark times and the happy times, there is the Word of God. Safe, stable, unchanging, and able to keep me from falling. Or from getting lost.
So there is no reason to fear. Even if I make a wrong decision, God is able.
Have a Blessed day, people.
“In quietness and trust is your strength.” Isaiah 30:15